Born Different. She refused to change and doing so, changed the world around her.
the film“Nothing on earth is perverted, because the Lord created it.”
—Sandie
This story is 30 years in the making. Against all odds, Sandie Crisp becomes a cult figure in the world of underground film, performance art, and music.
Sandie is a kind of a mirror, for when you look at her, you can’t help but compare your own body and circumstances to hers. She's an original, with no one in the world like her.
But fame is only a small part of Sandie’s story. Life dealt her a brutal hand, physical disability, poverty, exploitation, and a world often unwilling to see her humanity. Death and hardship linger constantly at the edges of her life. Yet Sandie confronts it all with biting humor, fierce honesty, and a spirit that refuses to surrender.
About the Director
Matthew Patrick is a cis, heterosexual man. His mother is Japanese from Tokyo and his father came from Goldsboro, North Carolina.
Matthew is a member of the Academy of Motion Picture Arts and Sciences, having served on its Executive Committee for decades.
His film 'Graffiti' earned an Academy Award Nomination for Best Dramatic Short and won Gold at major international festivals. His Triptych won a Student Academy Award at 23. He made his first feature, Atrapados (Trapped), at 25, which premiered at The Telluride Film Festival and represented the U.S. at San Sebastián in Spain.
His work has screened at The Museum of Modern Art in New York and at the Kennedy Center, as well as on TV and in theaters. He received a National Endowment for the Arts grant and was selected for the Sundance Directors Lab.
He directed psychological thrillers, Hider in the House, Tainted Blood, and Night Owl. His company, Fistful of Fools Films (F Off), Foff.tv developed feature projects, shot web series, and short form pilots.
In 1992, he acquired 100 acres in Joshua Tree, where he created ShadowRanch, a pre-cursor to Burning Man. ShadowRanch.net. Huffington Post article. He currently produces @Digi Desert media events, with live music, sculpture and digital projection onto a conclave of boulders.
Director’s Statement
This says it: “She inspired you to believe in yourself, forget whatever simple problems you might have and be fearless, and there’s nothing more beautiful than that,” LA WEEKLY.
I filmed the last thirty years of Sandie starting in 1991. I wanted to show her in an honest, real way. I never looked at any of the footage or started editing until after her funeral in 2022.
As a Director, you are always trying to raise money to make another Hollywood movie, but there are many ways to make films. When I met Sandie, I knew I found someone unique with a powerful spirit. She became the star of my no-budget production.
Her heart, courage and humor drew me in. She always presented herself with complete glamour, despite having a body that people weren’t used to seeing - a body that many didn’t associate with beauty.
She is intersex; A hermaphrodite. We only saw the MRI of her body when she was 55 years old.
When I’d visit Sandie, we'd have a lot of fun, but it was always a reality check. My problems were tiny next to hers and I would always walk away feeling a lot of gratitude for my life.
The movie was shot in an improvisational way, without imposing an agenda, judgement, or structure. I used a variety of techniques to try to get as close to the truth of each moment as I could. I never looked at any footage until after her funeral in 2022. I started editing and continue to in 2026
I never imagined it would be a 35 year long production.
This film a love letter to the outsiders, the queer kids, the artists, the disabled community — anyone who’s felt unseen, unwanted, and unloved.
News & Reviews
"Sandie Crisp, ‘Goddess Bunny’ of the Underground Scene, Dies at 61"
The New York Timeshttps://www.nytimes.com/2021/02/04/obituaries/sandie-crisp-dead-coronavirus.html
"Striking Portraits of America’s Most Legendary Drag Queens"
Harpers Bazaar
"R.I.P. The Goddess Bunny"
LA weekly
"The Goddess Bunny, a Trans Disabled Cult Icon, Passes Away at 61"
Them
https://www.them.us/story/goddess-bunny-trans-disabled-cult-icon-obituary
"The Legend of Goddess Bunny, Hollywood's Forgotten, Disabled, Trans Art Star"
Vice
"Goddess Bunny"
Wikipedia"A Tribute to Goddess Bunny, Hollywood’s Disabled Trans Art Star"
AnOther"Matthew Patrick awards, affiliations, reviews"
"Shadow Ranch Joshua Tree burning man" Huffington Post http://shadowranch.net